That's what I have been having for the past few days - a pity party for myself. It started last Thursday when I popped something in my tailbone and had to go to the ER. (The whole story is funnier, but not really appropriate for such a public forum.) The bottom line is that my tailbone was not broken, but is somehow damaged. I received 2 shots and 4 prescriptions and doctor's orders for rest. Well, all of those meds took care of rest for the weekend, and it did help to alleviate some of the pain. Unfortunately, I was also very groggy and sleepy all weekend. I realized on Sunday that I would not be able to take care of the boys on Monday if I continued with all of the meds. But without the meds, I don't sleep as well as night. So, this is not a good combination. I was still a little dizzy even off of the meds. Plus I was hurting, and I had expected to be more healed than I was. Basically, I have been a grumpy, complaining, irritable mess for the past couple of days. I realized yesterday that this was going on, but was even more convicted this morning. So, this is my confession and my apology. Things happen. They aren't always good. They don't have to ruin the rest of my day/time/life, though. I was reminded of Paul's "thorn in the flesh" as I thought about this. I really, really hope that this does not turn out to be a constant pain or problem, but I realized that being irritated about it until it goes away or heals up isn't going to help anything either.
So, I am vowing to move on from the pity party to a spirit of celebration. I love the celebration and wonder that accompanies this time of the year. I love trying to wrap my head around the idea that God wrapped himself into the form of a baby to be born on this earth all those years ago. He did it for us, for love, and for His glory. That is what I want to remember and that is what I want to show to the world.
By the way, Steve got me a wonderful early Christmas present last week and I want to brag on him! He downloaded "How Many Kings" (the new Christmas album) from Downhere for me, and it has become this year's favorite Christmas album. It is beautiful and fun and I highly recommend it! In fact, I am going to listen to it now. Merry Christmas!!
Weeding and Healing
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